From the Archives: Oscillating States: “Being as Doing” and “Self-Conscious Stumbling”
A.D.D.ers tend to oscillate between two different states: “being-as-doing” and “self-conscious-stumbling.” In the being-as-doing state, they are living within every moment, making decisions “within” the moment, doing things “within” that moment and, one might say, “existing as normal people do.”1 It is (or so I imagine) existence with a normal level of self-consciousness which is [...]
The Curse That Keeps On Giving
A.D.D. is The Curse that Keeps on Giving. It never stops. It never lets up. It never gives you a break. It is a curse from Pandora’s Box. You can’t put it back in. It stays with you till death. You can’t take a drug that will wipe it out. You can’t get a transfusion [...]
What is “normal” for an A.D.D.er?
As I write this…I suddenly feel normal or, to be exact, what I think normal is. I think normal is no waves of panic. Normal is knowing how much money is in your checking account. Normal is not feeling like your nerves are firing erratically. Normal is just to feel tired at the end [...]
Drug-induced normalcy(?)
I’ve been on Wellbutrin for over a year and recently (within the last few months) started taking a generic version of Ritalin. I’ve got to admit…I almost feel normal.1 I feel that I can now see things that I could not see before. Prior to taking medication…I felt I was in perpetual youth mode with [...]